24

last Wednesday I attended an event and I met a new friend_sort of.
like usual, the conversation started with
"hi, im hawa. so, you are Diyana."
i knew her name because we have been searching for her a few minutes before that.

"oh, hi! im Diyana, master student UPM."
ooo she is a master student. so young-my judgement from her looks.
and we talk about a few things more when she suddenly asked me,
"how old are you?"
casually i answered,
"im 24 this year."

suddenly, i got goosebumps and the numbers keep playing, repeating, circulating in my head.
24..24..24 

dia macam ahhhhh. im 24. yup! im 24 years old.

what have i done with my life?
what have i achieved?
what good deed have i done?

aaaahhhh im 24.
aku dah 24 tahun rupanya this year.
oooooooo....
really..there's nothing.

if one day people ask me, what is my biggest contribution in whatever thing it is,
there was really nothing.
my heart cried.
ached, thinking about me.

stranger

it somehow becomes questions,

how can a stranger be a friend

and how can a friend be a stranger?

yesterday, my friend visited me

it has been almost 5 years since last we met

my other friend for 5 years asked how did we meet?

how did we become friends?

we were both flustered

we don't even realised how we have friended

we have no real connection during our matriculation day

we were not in the same class

we were not in the same room

we were not in the same mentor-mentee group

the only connection was she is a friend of my friend

we met and we've grown closer to each other.

I've lost contact with my friend yet I still contacted her till today.

ouch! of the day

today during class, to be exact before the class started.
my two friends told me an advice they got from a genius in my class.

this is what he said when they randomly asked for an advice from him,
"tak rasa bersalah ke dapat JPA tapi tak study".
sentap jantung, hati dan limpa mak nak.
sakitnya tuh di sini <3
*nangis bawah bantal T.T

tak cukup smp situ je tu dia sambung lagi,
"exam dah dekat tapi korang asyik borak je lagi"
lebih kurang gitulah dialog dia.
exam ade la dalam 80 hari lagi ade ke patut dia suruh cut that into half..?
tercungap la ikan di laut tak cukup nafas hm.
terus mak bukak beg godek godek sikit carik buku bawa keluar then baca.

patut, memang patut dia suruh buat gitu T.T
*nangis lagi