24

last Wednesday I attended an event and I met a new friend_sort of.
like usual, the conversation started with
"hi, im hawa. so, you are Diyana."
i knew her name because we have been searching for her a few minutes before that.

"oh, hi! im Diyana, master student UPM."
ooo she is a master student. so young-my judgement from her looks.
and we talk about a few things more when she suddenly asked me,
"how old are you?"
casually i answered,
"im 24 this year."

suddenly, i got goosebumps and the numbers keep playing, repeating, circulating in my head.
24..24..24 

dia macam ahhhhh. im 24. yup! im 24 years old.

what have i done with my life?
what have i achieved?
what good deed have i done?

aaaahhhh im 24.
aku dah 24 tahun rupanya this year.
oooooooo....
really..there's nothing.

if one day people ask me, what is my biggest contribution in whatever thing it is,
there was really nothing.
my heart cried.
ached, thinking about me.